Umm, video? I've been thinking pretty much recently, but rather of making a "pro" shred video. By that I mean using pro camera or... just simply getting all ideas/music before filming. But we still need a good weather (just like now heh), perfect sky and temperature above 15 degrees. Whole thing's gonna be edited by Rozo ( http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=TRiNeXoS0NA http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=ItwUbkXCSME http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=XOh1_Nm2O6g), and I wanna use our beautiful city as a background. Always wanted to make this vid.
So till then, todexon9 report videos should come out. Yeah, as an ectomorph I shouldn't play too much while competition, but after routines, shred and circle ends...
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Remember the 15th Dec post? Since then I learned many things, and today I'd like to update my thoughts. It's mainly about interpersonal relations between us footbaggers (but you'll probably find it very subjective).
Those are things I've hidden for a long time... it all begins in mid 2005, between Setman and me, two very ambitious and quick learning n00bs. Each wanted to be better than the other, and the first time to see who's better were European Championships 2005 (in Wroclaw) and the youth exchange organized just before Euros. Pumped to show "how good I am", I was shredding all days without thinking too much what I eat or drink, how I regenerate. Results were terrible, I remember Wiktor's challenge to hit 10 contacts combo... I couldn't. Although being a n00b, I could do easly like 15 (?) before the event, I guess... so imagine my frustration, especially when I couldn't see the reason of my low form, which came "unexpectedly" exactly when I really needed the best one. Totally crashed, I had no reason to play footbag anymore. What was easy to guess, I came back... but it wasn't the same, I knew I need to change my tune. It didn't came out right away, actually it took alot of time...
Well, I'm the black sheep, 1% (or even less), who hates contention. Honestly. This is NOT what makes me wanted to get better. As I wrote last time, it's giving 110% in everything that is important for me. But not only - I want people to see my hard work, so maybe one day I'll be an inspiration for someone, like Vasek has always been for me. Again, I'm aiming far beyond getting better than someone. I'm writing this, because I believe it's a very positive attitude, and does not conjure up any negative emotions. Amen.
Another large theme can be seen here: emotions in footbag. I can't get rid of this strange feeling, I'm causing destructive desires, jelousness. Mostly by what I say, people can think I'm narcistic or sth. Now look how different would it be if I were a n00b; nobody would even notice me saying what's my dream move, what are my best tricks, best guiltless runs etc. When I'm a pro and write about new beastly drills or some typical 12 contacts fearless drills, adding anything spontaneous (like how cool it felt, how happy I am, what I'd like to add more or how easly it came) would be dangerous...
Two really good fbggers told me to watch out what I am saying, because it sometimes sounds very egoistic, and I'm on the level where I need to care about it. I believe it's true, but there were some other fbggers, which asked me to write more, because I was an inspiration for them (wasn't it what I always wanted?). I'm a perfectionist and listen to every advice, that is why I worry about this. However, sometimes I think it's not my problem but those, who can't understand why on earth I'm training so hard, not even wanting to be better than anyone.
Anyway, I'm going to stop posting highlights till Todexon, because I'm not going to spoil anything. I hope I'll manage to prepare for this competition well, that's a hard task considering how little time's left, but I'll do my best. Wow, Jim is comming, when I read it for th first time, it motivated me so much! If not him, I wouldn't even think about any shred30 or routine. IMO, the best thing about going abroad for a competition, I mean those big international, are positive emotions. That is why I can't wait till I step into the train, on the 14th of March.
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This is the end of the first semester! I'm glad, that all exams went well, some even better than I thought. The most important thing is: I got two 5's from designing! That's a big thing. I'm so happy that my hard work was appreciated. Sooo now I've got some spare time... over two weeks. Finally I can rest ...of course training hard for tdx, or learning ArchiCAD (fortunately found it very entertaining). Would be cool to make a new shred video, but I doubt it would work out anyway... I'll focus on this "pro" one.
Mm. OK, you won. Don't be scared when you see me playing on Toes... I'm slowly (actually much quicker than I though) "Kreiling" myself, and gonna collect all Px/F/At/Qm everything drills.