Sober day 2. I scouted out a plant nursery today. It's open tomorrow. So tomorrow I start my antimicrowave movie. See kids.. if you microwave a plant, it will die. ! J/k .
Man... im so FUCKED up. I guess that it will take me about 15-20 days of being sober before I start to feel like myself again. I know that excercise will probably speed up the process. Right now I can't even imagine excercising I'm so.... BLOBTACULAR. But.. maybe in 30 minutes I can go devirginize my new jumprope.. yeah yeah. I got a speed rope. Thanks Chris Pinkus. anywayz.... for now.. I'm just deleting files off of my computer, clearning gigs for the vids I'm gonna be making.
small jumprope session today. I tried to run while jumproping but only managed to skip. Finished up a few movies today. Nothing too good. Ultraviolet is . And I loved fifth element so much, oh well its ok. Chiill
Feelin good. I accomplished a lot today. I also excercised. Tomoorow I will make a lot of music and excercise even more. I will also film the beginning of the microwave movie!
The word intention literally means stretching toward. The word aspiration means breathing toward.
Hello Dave. Funny that you write about your dwindling audience "as so many get tired of all-talk, no-action." I've been left with that very impression, just today, having received no response to the email I sent to you Sunday afternoon ... a message meant to initiate precisely the bold step(s) you're calling for. Do you want to Change the World (for the better) ... or just write about it? Do you want to search ... for the sake of searching ... for a better way to live and make a living? Or, are you actually open to 'doing' and achieving the much needed changes/results? There are enough academics out there continually talking/writing about the problems and the need for solutions. The time is long past due to actually 'real-ize' the solutions. So, frankly, I was expecting more of you - especially someone with a business background to actually become 'busy' making things happen (instead of just 'busy-work' of blog writing). Yes, I will gladly be a model for you. Indeed, I present the model business in which to achieve the various results you call for ... intentional commerce: one aspect of which includes the commercializing of intentional communities as a new industry. What is needed is a new global 'Eco-corporate' entity ... one which can/will truly inspire people ... with massive employment (re-deploy people away from problem industries/companies) while generating a massive financial flow (intentional wealth for deliberate redistribution). Are you brave enough, Dave, to take that bold step? Is there anyone else out there, reading this now, brave and bold? D.
David • 9/26/06; 6:04:51 PM
According to the downanator aka Matt Kain (his name evokes such angst) it is very humorous how I oscillate between wanting to save the world and being so depressed and upset.
Well you must be laughing really hard right now Matt Kain.
Because I'm sad. Laugh Matt Kain as I have no tears to shed.
Once again a grand plot is afoot. A grad plan is in motion. A scheme is abrew. It will test the mighty and teach the meek. It will tear apart the shams and bring together the truth.
Ah.. my wordplay is a little wack but thats ok because I'm just rambling.
Well, It is a fine day. For today I have chosen a goal in life. Actually, I have chosen a whole lot of goals. And.. star wars music is playing in my head, but star wars is not on, nor is the soundtrack present. Yet, the moment is epic.
Over a year ago I moved away from the city of Los Angeles, away from my home and my mom, away from my friends family and life, on a simple intuition. I travelled across the country to shred with Ashley Danowski aka AD Thrilla.
Time passed and we fell in love. We have had sensational ups and violent downs but we have always perservered, forgiven and fallen deeper in love.
Now, we are closer than ever. Today I proposed to Ashley Danowski and she accepted. mmmm!!! Happy!
I have had another intuition. Growing up my parents were in the furniture business and I really didn't like it. But, I never had much of a work ethic and I wasn't the most open minded of people. But, time has been good to me and I have seen many things and had many ideas.
Ashley and I had planned to move back to Los Angeles on June 2nd to help my mom run her business. It is a rare opertunity to excercise our creativity and our prowess. My intuition tells me that I need to go sooner, that my mom will need my help and that the business might not last without me to help. I believe that the work ethic that I have learned being on my own for the last year will transcribe beautifully.
On January 2nd 2007, I will move back to Los Angeles. In between now and then I will film every session (I already started 2 weeks ago) that Ash and I have and when I move I will make a special video where each sesh gets 10-20 seconds and I compose the music for the approx 5 minute video.
6 months later Ashley will finish her year of school and join me in Los Angeles, where we will be married.
We have 2 and a half months together until I leave. We both came to this plan together. This is a giant test for us and we feel that it is for the better. This is at once both the hardest and most empowering thing that we have ever done.
Well, there you have it. I plan to take LA by storm! I will reunite OOPS! and create my own movement.
I can't imagine leaving this one I love for 6 months. We hug each other EVERY day. We are in each others arms. We talk about our days. We massage each other. We are in love. How can I let go of that? We have had our trials. We have fought and made up. We fought more and more at one point, then we fought less and less, and now our fights are so small and don't last. I feel like we are becoming one unit.
I brushed my teeth very well this early A.M. Long, 4 minute brushing with little ovals so as not to wear down my enamel. I got all the little nooks that usually get skipped. The insides. The top insides. The tongue....
Oh my love Ashley, I am glad that no matter what happens you love me. I love you so much. I will see you in 2 hours..
sell hockey gear
sell car
move back to LA early Nov.
try and help my moms business grow
come back to FL for my birthday and new years
(ashley is such a cutie!)
come back to LA
visit Ash in March
come back to LA
Go back to FL in late May to help Ashley move
! J/k . 
. And I loved fifth element so much, oh well its ok. Chiill
