I am not pleased.
My game has not been developing in the direction I want it to. I have been learning a lot of advanced 1-off concepts which are cool to say I have hit (ripwalk, blur, misc spinning crap) mostly on one side or the other. Meanwhile, my run endurance and variety have suffered. When I actually try to shred, I have a tough time time getting 10 contacts unless I do toe-to-toe tiltless.
This weather is depressing.
This time of year just fucks me up. Almost no daylight. I am fighting depression every day. It sucks. I feel physically drained for no reason. I feel weak. It is the physical symptoms of depression. I'm staying ahead of it mentally better than I usually do (when I was younger I would have days where I wouldn't get out of bed) but it's still a goddamn drain. I have trouble sleeping. I have barely any appetite, I have to force myself to eat. I'm trying not to get too angry about it.
I wrote to my old professor asking for a recommendation. He said that I was "only a mediocre student" and that I should "consider that before applying to grad school". Thanks for the vote of confidence. I have respect for people who tell the tough truth like that. Seriously, I do.
The main thing with footbag right now is that I don't feel I'm progressing as well as I should be. People who started playing around the same time I did (about a year ago) are starting to break away hitting stuff like 15 guiltless, tripless combos, fives... what the hell am I doing?
I didn't play last Saturday. I had to pick up furniture and move it into my house. It was quite the adventure, but I didn't like missing footbag. I haven't shredded since last Wednesday
12/11 1.5 hours session
FINALLY got my new Zeb Jackson bag in the mail. I can tell this thing is gonna be über cool when it breaks in. I managed to hit parkwalk and ripwalk with it, but mainly I just shredded with my zilla bag today.
Highlight:
Butter > Infinity > Ripwalk
That was probably it. I challenged myself to hit it and was really shocked when I hit it first try, because my clippers/butters were shitty all session. I also hit DLO first attempt and it footed it my two other tries. Getting closer and closer to flip egg and flip stepping. Footed crispy DLO.
I really need to feel better. Hopefully the exercise got the some blood flowing and rebalance the chemicals in my brain a bit. I could use that.
I don't get it.
on one side. It's like all of a sudden I could do stepping today, I have no other way of describing it. Flipside is not too far away. Backside Blur seems like a feasible first 5 
Not until I get a camera which I should be getting by either the end of Dec or the beginning of Jan.
