Well tonight I went over my friend's house for a sort of goodbye with the people I associate with the most. And when we left I got the strangest feeling. The one you get when you leave footbag tournaments. That down in your gut kind of pain when you know you'll really miss someone. And even though I don't have tons of friends here, the ones I do have I think I will miss. And maybe that scares me because I didn't think I was attached to this place at all.
If your reading my blog I'm happy you are. And I think if anything, I'd like to lend some advice. If your in highschool, really live for the moment. Really go out of your way to bond with people and make good friendships. Don't be afraid to stand out or date some weird girl. I cared too much about people and about what the outcome of stuff was. I really wish I would've just gone with my gut. At the end of the day, your true friends stick with you. Everyone tonight supports footbag 100% and think it's really awesome. But there are so many people I could have befriended and I didn't. There are a lot of oppurtunities I missed. So if your still in highschool, just go for whatever you want, cuz it's really probably better than regretting it at the end.
Back on topic, I move in on Wednesday. So I have 4 days left in this town. Most of my friends have left. The Penn State kids are still here, but I'm suprised at how few there are. My one good friend Adam is goign to PSU and I'm really happy about that because in the past few days we've hung out a lot and kinda just rolled with the punches of everyone leaving together. I think he will be a good person to have down there.
I haven't really packed much. Haven't played footbag in like 3 days. My knee really hurts. I wake up early and ride my bike. It's nice. Just riding around and thinking about stuff. You should try it.
I hope my knee heals so I can play with Scott and Nathan. I hope I make a lot of friends. I hope I stay friends with everyone in footbag even though I might not be online as much. I hope things work out.
In the past few weeks I've been pretty down on stuff. Like I really was having trouble finding a point in life. I was kinda bummed about religious stuff too. I think it will all work out. Just can't give up you know.
This may be my last post for a while. There are much bigger things than an internet forum. Footbag is much bigger than this forum. Although no matter how many silly kids make silly topics, I will always owe part of my enjoyment and skill to modified. Without it we would just be playing by ourselves in basements.
If you enjoyed reading my blog, thanks. It means a lot to have like 16000 views or whatever. It's cool to know that words your write are read by others. It's cool to know sometimes you make people happy, or teach someone something. It's cool to post videos and get props, but it seems like every day footbag becomes much more personal, and much less about the community. The only person I want to beat now is myself.
If you ever feel like chatting, feel free to shoot me an e-mail. DClavens at the big footbag.org.
I'm sure I'll still watch videos on this site, so I will not be totally gone. Perhaps even something I make will leak out to this site
Later readers. Shred hard. Spread the good word of footbag.
Your friend,
David Clavens
Just when I thought I couldn't get any more bitter about missing Kickass:
