slims psychopathic problems and days (comastalker)

[comastalker]

exactly 128 days went by since my last footblog-post-attempt and every power of 2 is some kind of opiate for informatic-students like me.
(back then I decided to write it in small segments while shredding and after one hour of huge text-writing operas atomatic page-reload function completely destroyed it and it was sooo frustrating, it took me 2^7 days to try it again).
Well, today is one of those days, that show “mathematic statistics suck shit”; why ?
yesterday and tomorrow (because of me having vacation, I’ll call it “this weekend”)
there were so much postitive and negative events, it’s against any calculated possibilities.

(“One cannot calculate life”)

Though I’m a friend of existentialist chaos theory, I’ll describe the two days from the beginning to the end.

(“The soul of every order is a big fat wastebasket” -Satre ? dunno-)

Well, yesterday, around 12:30 I decided to get up, take a glass of “instant banana milk” and a toast with a fat layer of “Sambal Oelek” smutched on it.
Why ? well, the banana milk almost completely (85%) consists of Glucose and somehow kicks my neuronal network in its dumb lazy ass and the sambal oelek just wakes me up.
I would have eaten 4 of those if I didn’t decided to shred early at around 13:00.
(I love early-mornin-shred). mmmkay...

“Oh, fuckit” I first have to learn math, because if I don’t, I’ll never do it on this day and my math-teacher told us to repeat complete analysis, “because if you don’t, you’ll pathetically fail [with a big grinning face]”.

“There’s nothing better than to calculate the bow-length of 4th degree spline-functions on monday at 13:00 o’clock”

ok, we got 13:40 and I’m ready to shred....a little warm up, some stretching and then I go on for some flipside whirling (they are getting really good and my flip pdx whirl is better than my strong one). Well, first endorphines arive at the limbic system :
My first two pdx whirl > pdx whirl in a row !
Seems like it’s one of these all-day combined “thanks-giving-xmas-days” !

I’m good at making the best out of good days.
“Well, let us attack the 4th milestone !”
I’ve set myself several goals in freestyle (I call them milestones) :
- #1 infinities
- #2 ripwalks
- #3 atomsmashers
- #4 well, that follows now
- #5 spinning, mostly spinning whirls
Ok, some kickin...and now go for that flip clipper (“straight up please, straight up”);
well, I succeeded, now spin, just a bit to the left, 20 degrees maybe (“balance please, balance !”), ok, now it’s gonna get tricky :
Push that leg up, jump and “central brain area, activate neuronal backbone sytem ! push adrenaline ! swing that fuckin leg ! ok ok...now go for that delay ! stop ! first plant...
mkaymkay...delay delay...”

“Do you feel highry !?” - Peter Tosh
“Ya Man !!!” - concert visitors

I’m dying of endorphines ! that was the first PS Whirl I’ve hit with a really clean stall, I’ve even hit a ss symp whirl out of it !

It was just 4 days ago, when I suddenly realized my atomic set improved onto a usable state of execution, so I decided to complete the session with some atomic training, since I wanted to show doctorjay some atomic stuff while shredding with him and my knee started to hurt a bit.

“An artist is a creature driven by demons.
He doesn’t know why they choose him
and is usually to busy to wonder why”
- William Faulkner -

That was a good decision (it seems like the day consists of good decisions)
half an hour later I had something to post nils gajsek via ICQ :
“chimaera : Witchdoctor !”
and 5 mins. later “Fury” followed.
Since now it was the first and last time I hit witchdoctor, so I count it as a
“being almost at it”. In the past, when I started freestyling, a “being almost at it”
was very frustrating; today it’s more a cognitive orgasm.
Frustrating is, when I ain’t hitting two infintites or osii in a row.

“when the happiness is at its peak, one shall stop”

kicking. stretching. shower.
endorphine damping. What’s better for that purpose but working on the german footbag page.

“Scream if you’re burning” -Muff Potter-

One week ago I’ve been on a class excursion with my informatics class..

(Don’t ask why I took informatics and mathematics
"Zarathustra says:
Those trees, and also any other creatures who want to grow high and reach far altitudes,
also have to grow deep into the ground; have to grow their roots into the darkest of all
places to be" -F.Nietzsche - So spoke Zarathustra-)

..and talked to one of my classmates who runs his own inet-server, hosting several firms and corporations including their pages with mysql and php etc.
Once, this guy called me at 4 o’clock in the morning (!) telling me that he’s now sitting for 5 and a half hour in front of his linux-console trying to reconfigure his php-system.
He told me he only got 2 hours left until the first firm starts working and he wanted to have his php system ready till then. I have to mention it was saturday ! That’s what I call service.
Well, to get back on-topic; I asked him regarding his left traffic and space volume and where his server is located and decided to host the german page there. It’s not only that it is cheaper, but I also have a private support partner working hours on a linux-console for my hosted page.
Perfect ! The only thing I need now is a page !
So I worked on the design and almost completed the navigation when I suddenly remembered I have to go to my driving-school asking for some practical driving lessons; my parents are going to kill me if I don’t.

Well, in fact, they didn’t have the time because they were in the biggest argument they ever had. I had to forget my lessons and “help” them. Not that easy.
- my mom crying and talking about suicidal tendencies
- and my dead drinking tons of alcohol
That’s far too much, not that they are going to ruin my best day since months;
my dad killed my last bottle of sanza-tequila.
I’m angry. Really angry. Who knows me, also knows my personal disability to be angry.
Sometimes I even discover myself a bit further.

“Nothing is true. Everything is possible.” - Hassan y Sabbah -

Two hours after busting atomsmasher I’m having my own little hyper-sensitive core imploding, releasing an unknown mass of energy and pressure.
Verbal Warrior.
and everything was quiet again.

“central brain area, damp colchicine production”
I’m one of those suckers developing headaches under the smallest amount of stress.
(Calling my best friend : )
“Well just come around: Sam and me are just hangin around smoking and playing Halo”.
I didn’t wait for a second invitation.

Well, that was yesterday.
I had a surpisingly quiet and good sleep.
My day starting with that “raw material video of vasek” where he busts a
“pixie symp paradon swirl”. I hate him for being that good.
Remembered yesterday and thought about the whole shit. It could only get better.
And it got. My parents are getting along with each other again.

Instant-banana-milk and sambal-oelek-toast.
“and daily dies the marmot”

Habits make happy. And so am I warming up, stretching. Doing some swirling and whirling, one attempt on toe symp whirl. failed. second one was successful.
Dunno why, but I didn’t want to try ps whirl again. My clippers felt good this morning,
so I decided to head towards milestone #5. Inspired by nili I wanted to learn spinning.
But the really rare nightmares I got are all filled with spins.
Half an hour I’m spinning now, getting really dizzy. But the whole shit payed out :
4 clip>spin> op toe s
1 clean and veveral dirty spinning osii
1 clean spinning butterfly.
and a not so clean flip osis> spinning whirl. This one rocks.

Lifes beautyful again and I’m happy but my knee hurts I’m almost unable to walk on it.
Ok stop that session and start cooling the knee.
“Fuck, I already used the nietzsche quote”

Well, with a hurting knee I’m at least able to do some math and write my footblog after 2^7 days of frustrated non-writing.

[Spadrick]

Hey! I really liked reading your blog!

“An artist is a creature driven by demons.
He doesn’t know why they choose him
and is usually to busy to wonder why”
- William Faulkner -

THATS SO TRUE!

Anyways, kudos on the moves, and keep up the hard shred!

~ Dex

[comastalker]

Hey! I really liked reading your blog!

“An artist is a creature driven by demons.
He doesn’t know why they choose him
and is usually to busy to wonder why”
- William Faulkner -

THATS SO TRUE!

Anyways, kudos on the moves, and keep up the hard shred!

~ Dex

thanx dex, it was a long and hard bunch of work to describe, what I thought during 5 minutes

I love that Faulkner quote. Found it in the giger calender for the past year (I get one each christmas from my brother).
Since I read that quote I always wanted to read at least one book written by him, but I never had the time since there are so much books I want to read first (Kropotkin, Nietzsche, Bakunin in that order).
I'd give so much for the ability to write so much in a few lines. Even the ability to write it down is fantastic. To be poetic beside it, is just an additional ability.

[Jeremy]

yeah great stuff Richard. Nice signature too!! *looks at Jeremy's post rank*

[comastalker]

back again and nothing changed.
my knee's still fucked up and I'm becoming depressed.
Decided to shred today, but I only used the other side (my clipper strong-/ and dexing flipside).
I only shooled swirls (clip set ss) for two hours, then quit training, now my flipside knee also hurts (but it's almost nothing, like every swirl-session).
It was the first time I hit swirl > near swirl
I still have problems doing the stall precise and a back-to-front swirl still is impossible for me (well, I don't really try it; am bothered enough with the other direction).
Today I also hit a swirl midstring (ok, not really midstring, since I only use my flipside, I throw the back from toe and inside onto my clipper and swirled it).

Felt like progress.
Still better than nothing.

"That could just be another curiosity in a biology book,
but like someone already said, the wing stroke of a butterfly
is the beginning of a big hurricane.
With her flight, the flying rebellion, means the butterfly, says :

NO !
No to logic !
No to wariness !
No to motionlessness !
No to conformity !

[...]

And [..] it is a known fact, that butterflies, like rebellions, are infectious"

taken and freely translated from
Subcomandante Marcos "2. Rebellion und Schmetterlinge" ("2. rebellion und butterflies")
Letter for the Aguascaliente in Madrid

[comastalker]

Please don't be fucked up because I'm using so many quotes, but I think it's a bit more entertaining and these footblogs are somehow ment as "diaries" and diaries, in their basic idea aren't meant for others but for their writers. Maybe in 5 years I'll still write into this footblog (I'm an optimist) and think "wow, already 5 years went by, why not read it from the beginning ?".

That's why I try to poethically enrichen it.

[mosher]

Splendid bloggage.

I think the quotes complement the text well.