Kyle dude sorry people are being dicks to you. All I can say is just take the high road and don't let it get to you. You are the freakin' us and world intermediate freestyle footbag champion. No one can ever take that away from you. More importantly you are an awesome kid, and the footbag community is fortunate to have you in it. Anybody trying to slander you is just an idiot. Screw them.
Thanks for the kind words guys, sometimes what people say does get to me and makes me feel I really am what they say. I'm glad I have you people to remind me I'm not what they say. Please though guys, don't post in here... Let this be the final post in this topic.
This is going to be my final post in this blog, because it just doesn't feel right posting in it anymore since everything thing has gone down. I'm going to end everything with the final chapter of the story of Kyle and Ashley.
I've been holding the phone, having the number of her house dialed, wanted to call her parents and talk to them face to face with everything. My uncle said he would come with me and talk to them with me, which would be really nice. I just want to explain everything to them... How I'm still in love with Ashley... How I can't let go of her... How I feel every night when I think about her... The constant nightmares I have because of this... How everything has hit rock bottom for me... How I would do anything to have her back in my life... I wouldn't care if we couldn't be alone... How we would have to build our trust back to her parents... No matter how long that took... Even if we never got the trust of her parents back... Just so I could talk to her on the phone... Maybe watch a movie at her house with her parents there...
I'm just thinking about what I'm going to say when I finally have the guts to call them... I just want to sit with them and talk to them calmly... Get all the problems we have settled so we can make things be the way they were before I was 18... When I took Ashley's little brothers trick or treating... When I took Ashley to Homecoming... When me, Ashley and her Dad would play pool, talk and laugh... When I would do things for their computers because it was something I enjoyed doing... Just... How things were...
I'm going to call them soon... I have to... I owe it to them, myself, and Ashley.... All I want is one more chance... I regret the sex we had now... because of everything that happened... I would change the past if I could... I still cry just about every night when I think about this... I just want a second chance... to prove I'm not a predator... to prove I'm not a rapist... to prove I'm not a punk... I just want that chance...
Thank you to everyone who talked to me about this, who kept up on everything, who were they supporting me and trying to make me feel better. You guys are true friends and I will always love you guys.
With much love
Kyle Hewitt
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