
Pablo Picasso, The Dream, 1932.
Picked that one, since sleep is the most precious and rare commodity in our life these days. I actually think our baby is pretty good in terms of sleeping and temperament, but its still a huge challenge to deal with his sleep needs. The wife and I basically trade 3 hour shifts around his feed times, where one of us sleeps and the other watches baby. It's harder now that I'm back at work, but I'm still trying to pick up shifts in the evening and morning to give Haley breaks to get through the day. Much coffee.
My last post in the 'Zine was my first Vlog, and I was happy with how it turned out. I got a lot of positive response on it, which encourages me to do more in the future. The reason I'm writing a post now instead of making another vlog, is that footbag-wise I don't have a lot to report. Mostly because I haven't had much opportunity to play lately. I don't think I'll have the time or energy to play during weekdays because of the baby and associated sleep schedule, so my best hope is to get in a couple sessions on weekends. We'll see if I can pull that off. I'll make another Vlog next time I get to play.
Here's a random video I shot the day Mariusz Wilk friended me on Facebook. I decided it was finally time to hit flip Marius, and I did. Probably never doing that again. The final trick in the video is a joke inspired by Lon, who claimed that any trick is easier when you do it in slow motion:
The biggest issue facing me with footbag now is deciding if I can go to Worlds. I have the funds, vacation days, and motivation to go. What I lack is any kind of certainty about how much time I'll have to prepare/train before the tournament, because of the baby. If things continue the way they are now, there's no way I can prepare adequately and it'd be a total waste for me to go. But it's likely that life with the baby will improve, in which case I might eventually figure out a schedule where I can train enough to give me a shot at doing well. The problem is that I don't know for sure that things will improve, and even if they do I have no idea when that will be. By the time that all becomes clear, it will likely be too late to get flights and lodging at reasonable prices. So basically I am forced into betting on whether or not I think I'll be able to train in time for Worlds, which is entirely contingent on something I have no control over and no experience with. The way I see it, I have 4 possible outcomes. From best to worst they are:
1. I buy tickets now, the baby starts sleeping through the night, the baby gets less fussy, Haley and I get back into a normal schedule, and I have time to properly train for Worlds. Because I bought tickets early, I'm able to go to Worlds and have a realistic shot at achieving my goals.
2. I decide not to buy tickets because there's too much uncertainty about what the next few months will be like with the baby. Sure enough, August rolls around before I know it. I haven't had time to prepare for Worlds, but I also didn't spend money buying tickets or make my parents or Haley sacrifice anything so I can go. I don't go to Worlds, but I also didn't waste resources needlessly.
3. I don't buy tickets since I don't know what to expect in the coming months. Happily enough, life with baby improves and I'm able to begin training. I decide to go to Worlds, but now tickets and logistics are a lot worse. Depending how bad they are, I may or may not go.
4. I buy tickets now, but life with baby doesn't improve, I blink and it's August, and now I'm going to Worlds completely unprepared with no real shot at doing well.
Maybe I'm looking at this wrong though. Perhaps the better question is more along the lines of: "10 years from now what would I regret more: going to Worlds unprepared, or not going at all?"