I am still there... lost in the moment. It's still with me, even now, hours after.
I'll forever be stuck in that instant, untill it comes round again.
I can still feel myself half crouched with my momentum sending me round again. The sensation is still on my foot - right where it should be.
I guess I'll just have to keep spinning and go from there.
But I did keep spinning. It was at that instant that I knew I had to. There was no going back, I had to keep going.
It felt so right and I'd had it ON MY FOOT for, what was it... five attempts, now? I knew it had to be comming, and here it was... That instant.
That moment where a simple catch or a drop would make or break me.
I was almost bent double from the impact and, maybe it's my form but I was spinning and it was on my flipside. I guess that's not a good thing when you're trying to seal it for the first time.
I came round and spotted the bag. It was right there... just out of reach. If I could dive forward...
And I did.
But it was out of reach.
I had just missed a sealing catch from ps whirl.
I collapsed to the ground and felt like my mind was gone. The whole thing felt like a joke. I'd been cursing and laughing at how close I was comming tonight, and now I had had the perfect(?) set from it... but just couldn't seal it. The bag had actually gone up, off the foot! That's got to count for something?
My eyes were closed and covered by my hands. I couldn't believe what had just happened - most of it was on autopilot.
And then Caroline was standing above me... I don't remember what she said. All I remember was where that bag was as I began that spin to hand catch. It was right there...
And yet...
I told her no. It wasn't good enough.
Maybe that broke her heart? She'd been watching me for a while now and I'd been comming so close... so close. But not close enough.
I felt I'd be cheating myself if I called it good.
I wanted to.
Newton knows I wanted to.
But it just wasn't good enough. I didn't make it in time.
And even now, I see the bag. It's there, but in a place too far.
I can see it... But I just can't touch it.
PS Whirl is comming, and not even Newtons evil spawn can stop it.
It will be mine.
Oh yes. It will be mine.
