Hey Cod
As Darkshredders signature says "Life is in constant flux".
I think changes you make yourself are usually for the better.
And that people should strive for not being caught in a routine.
I'm happy that you are going to write in here again.
Can't wait to hang with you in Prague,
A
Cod's life
I have to go to sleep. I've got an exam at 8 am and it's now 1 am here in Poland. This week I have exams in every day, lol. The one I wrote today (yesterday) I did pretty well, I think. The next one I'm going to write also pretty well. And the next one too. And the Thursday one also. 
I was shredding today. I do love Footbag. It's awesome when you finish a training and you feel it in your whole body. At the beginning I was practicing flipside Spinning. It's becoming better and better. As far as I remember I hit for example Pixie Clipper > Alpine Merkon > rpt and Spinning Paradox Mirage BSOS. Then, I was just shredding. Freestyle is so cool. After that Wiktor and I were trying to hit the longest Tripless drill we can. I hit a combo which I hit before a Clipper injury (BTW, I had a strongside Clipper injury during last few months, the same that I had had during Euros in Wroclaw, I think you remember it. At the moment it's a lot better with this injured Clipper but it still doesn't work fine): Atomsmasher > Toe Blur > Parkwalk > Blizzard > Dimwalk > Blur > rpt. Wiktor was close to hit a 6 tricks Tripless drill too. After that I was trying to add Assassin at the beginning. I didn't hit the combo because I was to tired already but I think it's pretty possible for me. After shredding we started playing some 2 Squares. I do love this game too. I have big troubles with Inside kicks because of this stupid injury so I have to use a lot of Toe kicks and Knee bumps. That sometimes sucks because I'm not able to do some nice attacks from behind. But my Knee attacks are better and better. I like them. I played few matches. I won with Staroń and Skuty. I lost with Wiktor. He's really good in 2 Squares. I play a lot with him and I won only once!
About the changes. The only thing I don't like in them is that I see how fast Asia is becoming just a normal person for me. That's really sad. We were together for 3,5 years and now I've got someone new. She also started dating with someone. I'd like to keep going on with our relationship. I know she want it. But I feel I can't be a friend of her. Boyfriend or no-friend. Stupid me. And I don't want to make her sad. On the other hand, all I want to do now is making Ewa happy. She is so good person. So lovely. So innocent. She perfectly understands my sense of humor. She is actually like me, but a female version. And her eyes, COME ON! When she looks at me with this eyes I'm speechless. That's unbeliveable.
Ok, I'm going to sleep. BTW, I'm writing from my brother's laptop. My personal computer is dead! Some virus killed it.
At the end I want to say that I'm happy
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PS. Asmus, it's really nice to see that I'm writing not only for me but for someone else too. Thanks for reading about my life.
I was shredding today. I do love Footbag. It's awesome when you finish a training and you feel it in your whole body. At the beginning I was practicing flipside Spinning. It's becoming better and better. As far as I remember I hit for example Pixie Clipper > Alpine Merkon > rpt and Spinning Paradox Mirage BSOS. Then, I was just shredding. Freestyle is so cool. After that Wiktor and I were trying to hit the longest Tripless drill we can. I hit a combo which I hit before a Clipper injury (BTW, I had a strongside Clipper injury during last few months, the same that I had had during Euros in Wroclaw, I think you remember it. At the moment it's a lot better with this injured Clipper but it still doesn't work fine): Atomsmasher > Toe Blur > Parkwalk > Blizzard > Dimwalk > Blur > rpt. Wiktor was close to hit a 6 tricks Tripless drill too. After that I was trying to add Assassin at the beginning. I didn't hit the combo because I was to tired already but I think it's pretty possible for me. After shredding we started playing some 2 Squares. I do love this game too. I have big troubles with Inside kicks because of this stupid injury so I have to use a lot of Toe kicks and Knee bumps. That sometimes sucks because I'm not able to do some nice attacks from behind. But my Knee attacks are better and better. I like them. I played few matches. I won with Staroń and Skuty. I lost with Wiktor. He's really good in 2 Squares. I play a lot with him and I won only once!
About the changes. The only thing I don't like in them is that I see how fast Asia is becoming just a normal person for me. That's really sad. We were together for 3,5 years and now I've got someone new. She also started dating with someone. I'd like to keep going on with our relationship. I know she want it. But I feel I can't be a friend of her. Boyfriend or no-friend. Stupid me. And I don't want to make her sad. On the other hand, all I want to do now is making Ewa happy. She is so good person. So lovely. So innocent. She perfectly understands my sense of humor. She is actually like me, but a female version. And her eyes, COME ON! When she looks at me with this eyes I'm speechless. That's unbeliveable.
Ok, I'm going to sleep. BTW, I'm writing from my brother's laptop. My personal computer is dead! Some virus killed it.
At the end I want to say that I'm happy
.PS. Asmus, it's really nice to see that I'm writing not only for me but for someone else too. Thanks for reading about my life
.Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
Hi everybody.
I had no shred yesterday. We have trainings only on Monday and Wednesday because we have no other places to shred.
The whole previous day I spent outside home. From 8 am to 6 pm I was studying. I've got an exam and it was actually not as easy as I thought. I wrote all but I had no time to check if my answers are correct. After classes I went with few friends to drink some beer. Then we ate a pizza. And after that we went to the cinema. The movie we were watching was called "Lust, Caution". It was one of the shittiest movie I've watched lately. I was so frustrated while watching it. Do not go to the cinema to watch this movie! After the cinema I drove back Ewa to her home because it was really late. I came back to my place half an hour after midnight. I drank tea and went to bed.
Ewa was yesterday in a bad mood. She wrote our exam not so good. She had also bad relations with her roommate recently. And she has some other things to worry about. Plus, she told me that she did't know if our relationship is a good idea. I know that she is scared of relationships becasue of her last boyfriend. He was a total asshole and now she has troubles to trust me and not to worry that I can hurt her like him. I know that our relationship could be awesome. Well, we will see. The only thing I know at the moment is that I have to talk with her a lot. And I'm going to fight for us!
My computer is alive. Viruses sucks, though.
I had no shred yesterday. We have trainings only on Monday and Wednesday because we have no other places to shred.
The whole previous day I spent outside home. From 8 am to 6 pm I was studying. I've got an exam and it was actually not as easy as I thought. I wrote all but I had no time to check if my answers are correct. After classes I went with few friends to drink some beer. Then we ate a pizza. And after that we went to the cinema. The movie we were watching was called "Lust, Caution". It was one of the shittiest movie I've watched lately. I was so frustrated while watching it. Do not go to the cinema to watch this movie! After the cinema I drove back Ewa to her home because it was really late. I came back to my place half an hour after midnight. I drank tea and went to bed.
Ewa was yesterday in a bad mood. She wrote our exam not so good. She had also bad relations with her roommate recently. And she has some other things to worry about. Plus, she told me that she did't know if our relationship is a good idea. I know that she is scared of relationships becasue of her last boyfriend. He was a total asshole and now she has troubles to trust me and not to worry that I can hurt her like him. I know that our relationship could be awesome. Well, we will see. The only thing I know at the moment is that I have to talk with her a lot. And I'm going to fight for us!
My computer is alive. Viruses sucks, though.
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
Today there was a really big shred in our small shredplace. 15 players! And that wasn't a jam. Just a normal shred. All players were from Warsaw. Awesome! I can't wait for the next one. At the beginning I played 2 Squares with Wiktor. We played to 21 points and I won! Hurray! Then we started to shred hard. I was mainly trying to do a lot of flipside Spinnings in my runs today. I love spins! I haven't hit anything special but I'm so happy about this shred. Wiktor has hit a Tripless drill 7 tricks > rpt. Nice!
Today at the university Ewa was having fun with my footbag. She hit Toe > Toe! Sweet. She really enjoyed playing with this small ball . Hahaha, I'm terrible 
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From the exam on Monday I scored 26 out of 30 points. I'm happy. Today I had an English exam. It was really hard. But I think our teacher will not look at this exam so strictly... At least I hope so, hehe . Tomorrow I'll have another exam. I have to wake up earlier to learn a bit.
That's all from today. Hugs and kisses!
Then we started to shred hard. I was mainly trying to do a lot of flipside Spinnings in my runs today. I love spins! I haven't hit anything special but I'm so happy about this shred. Wiktor has hit a Tripless drill 7 tricks > rpt. Nice!Today at the university Ewa was having fun with my footbag
. She hit Toe > Toe! Sweet. She really enjoyed playing with this small ball . Hahaha, I'm terrible .From the exam on Monday I scored 26 out of 30 points. I'm happy. Today I had an English exam. It was really hard
. But I think our teacher will not look at this exam so strictly... At least I hope so, hehe . Tomorrow I'll have another exam. I have to wake up earlier to learn a bit.That's all from today. Hugs and kisses!
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
Another good day .
I had today another exam. It was actually a small 10-minute test, lol. I scored 8,5 points out of 10. Few weeks ago we had to prepare presentations at these classes and mine was pretty nice. Adding this to my test's score gave me the biggest possible mark - 5. I'm happy because it's my first mark ever on this university. After classes I went with two friends to drink a beer or two. Then I came back to the university because I'm one of the volunteer teachers at the "3rd Age University". We teach older people how to use a computer. I pretty much like this. I have a really cool group. I can joke all the time during classes and I see they like the way I do my job. And that's not a big deal that they are 3 times older than me .
While I was coming back home Staroń sent me an sms asking if I wanted to play today. Of course I wanted. We played in our standard shredplace but because we have a gym only on Mondays and Wednesdays we had to play on a corridor. But that wasn't a problem because there were only three players. The shred was nice even though we were really tired after yesterday. Our runs weren't as long as we wanted today. But the training was still sweet. I was schooling Illusions. I mean, I was throwing a lot of them to my runs. With Pixies, Steppings, Quantums and Spinnings. And also Dillusions. I love Illusions .
About changes in my life. I start tomorrow a Salsa course! Staroń and Kamil (a non footbag friend of mine) are starting it with me as well. That will be awesome!
Best regards everybody!
PS. I hit today Quantum Clipper BSOS. Try this. It's such a cool move and I haven't seen anyone hitting this.
.I had today another exam. It was actually a small 10-minute test, lol. I scored 8,5 points out of 10. Few weeks ago we had to prepare presentations at these classes and mine was pretty nice. Adding this to my test's score gave me the biggest possible mark - 5
. I'm happy because it's my first mark ever on this university. After classes I went with two friends to drink a beer or two. Then I came back to the university because I'm one of the volunteer teachers at the "3rd Age University". We teach older people how to use a computer. I pretty much like this. I have a really cool group. I can joke all the time during classes and I see they like the way I do my job. And that's not a big deal that they are 3 times older than me .While I was coming back home Staroń sent me an sms asking if I wanted to play today. Of course I wanted
. We played in our standard shredplace but because we have a gym only on Mondays and Wednesdays we had to play on a corridor. But that wasn't a problem because there were only three players. The shred was nice even though we were really tired after yesterday. Our runs weren't as long as we wanted today. But the training was still sweet. I was schooling Illusions. I mean, I was throwing a lot of them to my runs. With Pixies, Steppings, Quantums and Spinnings. And also Dillusions. I love Illusions .About changes in my life. I start tomorrow a Salsa course! Staroń and Kamil (a non footbag friend of mine) are starting it with me as well. That will be awesome!
Best regards everybody!
PS. I hit today Quantum Clipper BSOS. Try this. It's such a cool move and I haven't seen anyone hitting this.
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
Roxie is Rooted Swixie and Swixie is Swirling started from XBD Toe. And Rockstep i Roxie Stepping. Here's a vid with Rockstep Butterfly: http://pl.youtube.com/watch?v=3U9MvQbFlVg.
About Quantum Clipper. Oh well.
All right. And now about the previous day. It was AWESOME! I had my first ever dance training. I went there with Staroń and Kamil. I'm going to fall in love with Salsa! One, two, three. Five, six, seven.
After the training I went with Kamil to met Ewa and Martyna (our friend from university). We went to a small kebab/shisha bar. We weren't hungry so we just ordered shisha and bought a beer. Kamil had to go really fast so I stayed with to ladies. We were laughting a lot. I so much like their sense of humor. After that they had to go to Martyna for a girls' evening but it turned out to the girls plus Michał's evening. We bought Vermouth, 7 Up and Red Bull. It was the first time ever I drunk Vermouth. It's pretty tasty with and without 7 Up or Red Bull. Yummy. At Martyna's place I was showing girls what I had learnt at the training. Martyna would like to go to the same training. We are keeping our fingers crossed for a free place for her. So, we were dancing there a lot and that was fun. But the evening was also a bit footbagish . Girls wanted me to show some tricks. They were amazed when I had shown Pixie Merlin 
. I also presented my juggling skills. We said we should have make a circus . At midnight we were already tipsy enough to go to beds. I had to go back to my house but I stayed for a night at Martyna's place...
And now I have to learn a lot, blah!
About Quantum Clipper. Oh well
.All right. And now about the previous day. It was AWESOME! I had my first ever dance training. I went there with Staroń and Kamil. I'm going to fall in love with Salsa! One, two, three. Five, six, seven.
After the training I went with Kamil to met Ewa and Martyna (our friend from university). We went to a small kebab/shisha bar. We weren't hungry so we just ordered shisha and bought a beer. Kamil had to go really fast so I stayed with to ladies. We were laughting a lot. I so much like their sense of humor. After that they had to go to Martyna for a girls' evening but it turned out to the girls plus Michał's evening. We bought Vermouth, 7 Up and Red Bull. It was the first time ever I drunk Vermouth. It's pretty tasty with and without 7 Up or Red Bull. Yummy. At Martyna's place I was showing girls what I had learnt at the training. Martyna would like to go to the same training. We are keeping our fingers crossed for a free place for her. So, we were dancing there a lot and that was fun. But the evening was also a bit footbagish . Girls wanted me to show some tricks. They were amazed when I had shown Pixie Merlin . I also presented my juggling skills. We said we should have make a circus . At midnight we were already tipsy enough to go to beds. I had to go back to my house but I stayed for a night at Martyna's place...And now I have to learn a lot, blah!
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
On Saturday Wiktor invited me to him for shred, dinner and wine. The shred was fine. I hit two things which are worth mentioning. That was Quantum Clipper BS and Quantum ss Clipper BS in one run in first try ever, and Pixie Diving Symposium Mirage > Pixie Diving Symposium Mirage. The dinner was awesome! Wiktor prepared extremaly good spaghetti with Tomato sauce and Feta cheese. Yummy! The wine was also pretty tasty. I started coming back home at about 1 am and... I was at home at about 4 am! My night bus at 1:30 didn't come and I have to wait for another. The problem is that there are only few buses from Wiktor to me during the whole night. It turned out that I waited more than one and a half hours for a bus which wasn't going directly to me... I had to go for a 25 minutes long walk from the bus stop to my place. That was terrible because I was extremaly tired and sleepy. And I was a bit tipsy too.
Sunday evening and night was also partyish. I went with Ewa and Martyna to the salsa party somewhere in the centrum of Warsaw. It was really frustrating to see all this people dancing so hot. Especially if you can do only the basic steps... I think it was even more frustrating to me than competing in Footbag tournaments with Vaseks, Jordens and other crazy players which are n times better than be. I think that's because Ewa so much loves salsa and is so extremaly happy while dancing with all these guys. I'd like to give her this pleasure. But at the moment it's imposible. But maybe sometime... I cam back home at 2 am because after the party I drove back Ewa to her place.
Ok, I have to say I totally didn't learn during this weekend. I'm such a dead-beat.
Today at the university our English teacher was deciding about our marks from this semester. He gave me 4.5 but I can prepare some kind of short presentation and he could give me the highest mark - 5. I think I'm going to make it. Tomorrow I have to exams. They should be easy. I hope so...
In the evening I was on the training at UW gym. It was awesome even though I wasn't playing that good. But hey, I still hit some new cool things. It was: run with Pixie Merlin > Delusion and (other) Delusion > Merlin, Pixie ss Eggbeater > Pixie ss Eggbeater and my favourite link Enterrage > Pixie DSO. I tried to hit some Fearless. I was close to 5 which is not that bad with my record of 6. I think I'm able to hit even more in few trainings!
Now I have to go to sleep. I go to school in 7 hours...
Sunday evening and night was also partyish
. I went with Ewa and Martyna to the salsa party somewhere in the centrum of Warsaw. It was really frustrating to see all this people dancing so hot. Especially if you can do only the basic steps... I think it was even more frustrating to me than competing in Footbag tournaments with Vaseks, Jordens and other crazy players which are n times better than be. I think that's because Ewa so much loves salsa and is so extremaly happy while dancing with all these guys. I'd like to give her this pleasure. But at the moment it's imposible. But maybe sometime... I cam back home at 2 am because after the party I drove back Ewa to her place.Ok, I have to say I totally didn't learn during this weekend. I'm such a dead-beat.
Today at the university our English teacher was deciding about our marks from this semester. He gave me 4.5 but I can prepare some kind of short presentation and he could give me the highest mark - 5. I think I'm going to make it. Tomorrow I have to exams. They should be easy. I hope so...
In the evening I was on the training at UW gym. It was awesome even though I wasn't playing that good. But hey, I still hit some new cool things
. It was: run with Pixie Merlin > Delusion and (other) Delusion > Merlin, Pixie ss Eggbeater > Pixie ss Eggbeater and my favourite link Enterrage > Pixie DSO. I tried to hit some Fearless. I was close to 5 which is not that bad with my record of 6. I think I'm able to hit even more in few trainings!Now I have to go to sleep. I go to school in 7 hours...
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
This week wasn't so fun. I had to learn and I still have to and I'm so lazy! Tuesday's exams were easy. From the Microeconomics one I scored 9 out of 10 points. But the most important (and a lot more difficult) exam from this classes is on Monday. The previous one was from practice and the next one will be from theory. I've got 4.5 note from the practice and I'll be happy with 3 from the theory . But at the moment I suck at it . I wrote the exam from Programming in C++ really well. I'm still waiting for results. I'm almost sure I'm going to get 5! On Wednesday I had the practical exam from Mathematical Statistics - the hardest classes on this semester. About 85-90% of students failed this exam... I wasn't at this group . I have a note of 3.5 which is really good . But I still have to write the theoretical exam which scares me. From the practical exam from Business' Finances I got 5! Ok, that's all about exams at the moment .
I was on the UW gym on Wednesday. There were only a few players. And the shred was terrible. I hadn't hit anything special. Well, maybe only this: Pixie Dada Curve > DPS Mirage. But it's not so hard I think. I played a lot of 2 Squares with Staroń. We played few matches with a rule of two contacts only. Those were really fast and cool matches!
Today I was on my second Salsa training. It's so fun! I can't wait to dance like a pro.
. But at the moment I suck at it . I wrote the exam from Programming in C++ really well. I'm still waiting for results. I'm almost sure I'm going to get 5! On Wednesday I had the practical exam from Mathematical Statistics - the hardest classes on this semester. About 85-90% of students failed this exam... I wasn't at this group . I have a note of 3.5 which is really good . But I still have to write the theoretical exam which scares me. From the practical exam from Business' Finances I got 5! Ok, that's all about exams at the moment .I was on the UW gym on Wednesday. There were only a few players. And the shred was terrible
. I hadn't hit anything special. Well, maybe only this: Pixie Dada Curve > DPS Mirage. But it's not so hard I think. I played a lot of 2 Squares with Staroń. We played few matches with a rule of two contacts only. Those were really fast and cool matches!Today I was on my second Salsa training. It's so fun! I can't wait to dance like a pro
.Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
All right guys. I think that's time for new post.
I finished all my mid-semester exams. I did them pretty well and that's so cool. I remember when I was studying Math and failing exams was a stadard. That sucked. Now I've got winter holidays. It's only one week but it's still cool.
I party a lot recently. On Sunday I met my old friend from high school and we went to some park and drink vodka. That's so Polish, hehe. On Monday I was in the club also with friends from high school. The party was cool beacuse it was some kind of Beer Fest, so you pay only at the beggining (20 Zlotys, it's about 8 bucks) and drink as many beer as you can . We were hungry so we ordered pizza to the club, lol. People from other tables were jeleaous . To sum up this night, I drunk a lot and I danced a lot. It was awesome! On Tuesday I wasn't partying. I watched a movie and drink few beers at home, though . It was "1408" really nice thriller/horror. Today a friend of mine is doing a party at his place. I have to go there, hehe. On Friday I'm going to go to a Salsa party. What a party Cod! 
Oh, by the way. At weekend I was in the cinema and watched "Cloverfield". It was perfect! Really. I can't remember when I was watching such a good catastrophical movie lately.
About Salsa. I like it more and more every week. At the moment I'm after 4 trainings. It reminds me of learning Footbag at the beggining of my carrer. I can only basic steps and four "tricks" and it's pretty cool to link them. It is possible that I will also start Kizomba training. That's also pretty nice latino dance.
Ok, now it's time for some words about my relationship with Ewa. I'm falling in love more and more. I like her soo much! She got perfect sense of humor. Really. And she's so cute. I miss her because she's from other town and she went home for holidays. She will be back on next Monday or something like that. And then we will go for the next Salsa party. I'd like so much to be as good as she is. And she still says she wasn't good . She's so stupid. Just like me .
Maybe now about footbag. I start with a bad news. My back hurts. That's so uncool . It started after today's training which was actually pretty nice. I've got really long combos. I feel I have better days and that's because I'm so frstrated about the pain in back . I haven't hit anything new recently. But some thing are worth mentioning I think. For example: Beta Blur > Atomsmasher > Legbeater > rpt. or (Parkwalk > Ripwalk > Sidewalk > Blur > rpt.) > (Dimwalk > Blizzard > rpt.) > run or Spinning PS Mirage BSOS or Smear > Merlin > Smear > Merlin > Smear or Ripwalk x 10 (that's my record after Clipper injury).
I hope you enjoyed reading this. Best regards everybody!
I finished all my mid-semester exams. I did them pretty well and that's so cool. I remember when I was studying Math and failing exams was a stadard. That sucked. Now I've got winter holidays. It's only one week but it's still cool.
I party a lot recently. On Sunday I met my old friend from high school and we went to some park and drink vodka
. That's so Polish, hehe. On Monday I was in the club also with friends from high school. The party was cool beacuse it was some kind of Beer Fest, so you pay only at the beggining (20 Zlotys, it's about 8 bucks) and drink as many beer as you can . We were hungry so we ordered pizza to the club, lol. People from other tables were jeleaous . To sum up this night, I drunk a lot and I danced a lot. It was awesome! On Tuesday I wasn't partying. I watched a movie and drink few beers at home, though . It was "1408" really nice thriller/horror. Today a friend of mine is doing a party at his place. I have to go there, hehe. On Friday I'm going to go to a Salsa party. What a party Cod! Oh, by the way. At weekend I was in the cinema and watched "Cloverfield". It was perfect! Really. I can't remember when I was watching such a good catastrophical movie lately.
About Salsa. I like it more and more every week. At the moment I'm after 4 trainings. It reminds me of learning Footbag at the beggining of my carrer. I can only basic steps and four "tricks" and it's pretty cool to link them. It is possible that I will also start Kizomba training. That's also pretty nice latino dance.
Ok, now it's time for some words about my relationship with Ewa. I'm falling in love more and more. I like her soo much! She got perfect sense of humor. Really. And she's so cute
. I miss her because she's from other town and she went home for holidays. She will be back on next Monday or something like that. And then we will go for the next Salsa party. I'd like so much to be as good as she is. And she still says she wasn't good . She's so stupid. Just like me .Maybe now about footbag
. I start with a bad news. My back hurts. That's so uncool . It started after today's training which was actually pretty nice. I've got really long combos. I feel I have better days and that's because I'm so frstrated about the pain in back . I haven't hit anything new recently. But some thing are worth mentioning I think. For example: Beta Blur > Atomsmasher > Legbeater > rpt. or (Parkwalk > Ripwalk > Sidewalk > Blur > rpt.) > (Dimwalk > Blizzard > rpt.) > run or Spinning PS Mirage BSOS or Smear > Merlin > Smear > Merlin > Smear or Ripwalk x 10 (that's my record after Clipper injury).I hope you enjoyed reading this
. Best regards everybody!Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)
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Life sucks sometimes. This moment is right now.
My short but awesome relationship with Ewa is over. And that's only my fault. I made a mistake which can't be forgiven. I did it after a lot of alcohol, beiing almost unconscious. I think you know what I might done. I really regret it. It really sucks because I didn't even want to do it. I was falling in love with Ewa and everything was so perfect. And then this party came and it happened. In the morning I was so suprised that I had done it that I didn't know if it hadn't been just a bad dream. But it wasn't a dream. I feel like a shit. Well, actually at the moment I don't feel so extremaly bad. It happened two weeks ago and my brain is starting to understand what's going on slowly. That's because I can write about it. For two weeks I was still hoping that she might forgive me but I understood it's imposible. I hurt her so much and we were only 1,5 month together so why would she even think about forgiving me? At the moment our relations aren't that bad. She just deleted all memories and feelings about our relationship and we're normal friends. Though, everytime I look into her eyes I see how good it would be if I didn't do what I did. She doesn't even think about it. That's the first time ever when a life kicked my ass. With my own leg! I cannot understand why it happened and what for. I have to forget about her and not to pity myself. I came to some conslusions about all this shit. I hope it allows me not to do such a mistake again. I'm a really good person. I know that. But after breaking up with Asia I'm lost. I have to find myself.
All right. That was about another big change in my life. Now some other things.
I was wondering that after the break up I wouldn't feel Salsa cool anymore. Fortunatelly, I love this dance even more! I go to Salsa parties twice a week and I school all moves I can and even learn some new ones. That's awesome. What's interesting, Ewa goes with me (and my friends) at the same parties. I so much like to look how she dance. Eh.
And what about Footbag, you ask. I had a small break because of back problems. The I've got an awesome shred on Monday. I had so much nice runs that I felt like Gielnik in Circle Contest, hehe. Once, I hit so long run that I had to finish it before dropping. I love this feeling when you catch the bag in your hand because you will fall if you play more. But. At the end of the shred something happend to my knee...
Ok, that's all for today. Best regards everyone!
My short but awesome relationship with Ewa is over. And that's only my fault. I made a mistake which can't be forgiven. I did it after a lot of alcohol, beiing almost unconscious. I think you know what I might done. I really regret it. It really sucks because I didn't even want to do it. I was falling in love with Ewa and everything was so perfect. And then this party came and it happened. In the morning I was so suprised that I had done it that I didn't know if it hadn't been just a bad dream. But it wasn't a dream. I feel like a shit. Well, actually at the moment I don't feel so extremaly bad. It happened two weeks ago and my brain is starting to understand what's going on slowly. That's because I can write about it. For two weeks I was still hoping that she might forgive me but I understood it's imposible. I hurt her so much and we were only 1,5 month together so why would she even think about forgiving me? At the moment our relations aren't that bad. She just deleted all memories and feelings about our relationship and we're normal friends. Though, everytime I look into her eyes I see how good it would be if I didn't do what I did. She doesn't even think about it. That's the first time ever when a life kicked my ass. With my own leg! I cannot understand why it happened and what for. I have to forget about her and not to pity myself. I came to some conslusions about all this shit. I hope it allows me not to do such a mistake again. I'm a really good person. I know that. But after breaking up with Asia I'm lost. I have to find myself.
All right. That was about another big change in my life. Now some other things.
I was wondering that after the break up I wouldn't feel Salsa cool anymore. Fortunatelly, I love this dance even more! I go to Salsa parties twice a week and I school all moves I can and even learn some new ones. That's awesome. What's interesting, Ewa goes with me (and my friends) at the same parties. I so much like to look how she dance. Eh.
And what about Footbag, you ask. I had a small break because of back problems. The I've got an awesome shred on Monday. I had so much nice runs that I felt like Gielnik in Circle Contest, hehe. Once, I hit so long run that I had to finish it before dropping. I love this feeling when you catch the bag in your hand because you will fall if you play more. But. At the end of the shred something happend to my knee...
Ok, that's all for today. Best regards everyone!
Michał Biarda (Me-how Be-r-da)